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Willkommen, Bienvenue, Welcome! I hope you all enjoy reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing it. A little about myself? Not much to say. I'm just a girl trying to figure out life and its many complications. I call myself a "scribbler of dreams," hence this blog. I'm a dreamer, an extrovert, a slacker, a "mush-gush," a performer, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and "that girl." I study theatre and plan to make a successful career out it...preferably musical...maybe BrOaDwAy? Who knows, right? My climax awaits...but for now, I'm only in the "rising action" of the story of my life. Every day is another page turned; every year, another chapter. My objective in life is to enjoy it (in, of course, a healthy and responsible way). I may not be the best person sometimes, but I try my best to be a good one. I pray each and every page of your book be wonderful. Thank you and may God bless you always,
Monica
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"Life is the ultimate experience of agony and happiness."
-Paul Gulisano
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Saturday, July 10, 2004
| .stats. |
| Name:: |
Monica Lynne |
| Nickname:: |
Monki, Moni, Ma, Babe, Bleepy, Boongy |
| Gender:: |
Female |
| Age:: |
16 |
| Birthday:: |
1/19/88 |
| Birthstone:: |
Garnet |
| Sun Sign:: |
Capricorn |
| Righty/Lefty:: |
Righty |
| Country:: |
U.S. |
| State/Province:: |
Florida |
| .appearance. |
| Height:: |
Itty-bitty 5' 2 |
| Weight:: |
110 |
| Hair Colour:: |
Brown (reddish in the sun) |
| Hair Length:: |
LoOoOoOong!! (up to my hips) |
| Hair Style/Texture:: |
It has it's moods. Usually straight/wavy |
| Eye Colour:: |
Brown |
| Eye Shape:: |
::looks at mirror:: Almond-shaped, I think. |
| Ethnicity:: |
Cubiche |
| Skin Tone:: |
"Nude Beige," so says my concealer. |
| Hand Size:: |
Teeny |
| Shoe Size:: |
7 |
| Shirt Size:: |
Sm/Med |
| Pants Size:: |
2 on a good day. |
| Dress Size (girls only):: |
Sm? I dunno...I'm not so good at being a girl. |
| Ring Size:: |
6, I think. |
| Face Shape:: |
Alienish...I was once taunted. Heart-shaped face. |
| Glasses:: |
Lost em in 8th gd...soon to get. |
| Braces:: |
Total brace face! few more months!! |
| Piercings:: |
Ears |
| Tattoos:: |
Ewie. Permanents scare me. |
| Scars/Burns:: |
Scars: eyebrow (sis bit me. long story), scalp (bed jumping) |
| Amputations:: |
Sounds painful. |
| Artificials (implants, colour contacts, etc.):: |
Contacts and acrilic nails once. |
| Physical Disabilities:: |
Crooked pinkies, bad wrist |
| .fashion. |
| Social Class (goth, prep, nerd, etc.):: |
Independent |
| Stores:: |
Marshalls, PacSun, Hot Topic, Publix (yum), & Jen's closet...hehe |
| Colours:: |
White, Browns, Black |
| Season:: |
Fall & Winter |
| Eye Makeup:: |
Mascara & Liner do a lot. |
| Face Makeup:: |
Bronzer all the way! |
| Lipstick/gloss:: |
Vic's Secret, Mac, Avon chap stick |
| Hair Streaks/Tips:: |
"Au naturale" (but maybe burgundy tips soon) |
| Nail Polish:: |
Natural colors |
| Earrings:: |
Ears |
| Arm Jewelry:: |
I love jewelry! |
| Necklaces:: |
All but one...ugh |
| Anklets:: |
i want one |
| Rings:: |
My future yellow-diamond ring ::wink:: |
| Hairclips:: |
lose em, break em, need em (like the big, pretty, jeweled butterfly) |
| Chains:: |
on clothes, right Jen? hehe |
| Belts:: |
I want more... |
| Suspenders:: |
That'd be a cool trend to start...where should i gettum? |
| Guy clothes/girl clothes:: |
Girls, mostly...but I like the feminine/tomboy look... |
| Shoes:: |
Sneaks, sandals, and high-knee boots! |
| Jackets:: |
My white leather jacket!! |
| Purse/Backpack:: |
the one with buttons, um the one Tia gave me, um...the one with... |
| Swimsuit:: |
Bikini top and baggy surf shorts. |
| Sunglasses:: |
Can't ever find nice looking ones and they break or I lose em...oh, how I love them so. |
| Umbrella:: |
um...the bag or the jacket I have on me at the time. |
| Trademark Item:: |
My long hair. |
| Favorite Piece of Clothing:: |
My leather jackets, of course. 'Tis a shame I can only use them during certain seasons. |
| One Thing You'd Change About Yourself: |
My pride (i've gotten better), and my tummy. |
| Thing You Love Most About Yourself:: |
My hair, my artistic talents, and ...::giggle:: (whispers) my bootie |
| How You Feel Looking in the Mirror:: |
ok, I guess. |
| Figure:: |
Petite, I think. |
| How Others See You:: |
...iono, you tell me. |
| .religion&spirituality. |
| Religion:: |
Christian |
| Good/Evil:: |
Good...atleast I try. |
| Mono/Multi:: |
Mono...I love God!! |
| Symbols:: |
um, the cross? |
| Main Moral:: |
See the Bible. |
| Gods/Goddesses:: |
The Father, the Son, and the Holy Spirit? |
| Otherkin Status:: |
Wa'? |
| OOBE's:: |
Que-que!? |
| Religions You Don't Like:: |
Next Question, plz...too controversial. |
| Astral Form Appearance:: |
Toned tummy, a Streisand singing voice, & smooth non-frizzy hair. |
| Truename:: |
Monica's fine to me. |
| Innate Powers:: |
invisibility, or mind-reading? |
| Element:: |
...iono...fire? earth? ::shrugs:: |
| Afterlife:: |
In heaven chillin' w/ the big dawg upstairs...haha |
| .whatdoyouthinkaboutthis. |
| Sex:: |
I'm a Female! ::giggle:: |
| Drugs:: |
badbadbad |
| Guns:: |
scary |
| Alcohol:: |
blech...(except for Mike's Hard Lemonade & Smirnoff Ice)...heehee |
| Magic(k):: |
huh? |
| ..................... |
.......................... |
| War:: |
Unnecessary |
| Religion:: |
Controversial |
| Atheism:: |
Dissappointing |
| The Big Bang Theory:: |
puh! yea right...as if. |
| Romance:: |
::sigh::flutters lashes:: |
| Britney Spears:: |
ugh...dont get me started... |
| True Witchcraft:: |
Work of the devil...i think...nothing positive. |
| Medical Marijuana:: |
All for it! Cures, lawful, and "feels good"...heck why not? |
| .love&relationships. |
| Preference:: |
stupid guys... |
| Marital Status:: |
::sniff:: |
| Real Life Crush:: |
::pout:: |
| Celebrity Male Crush:: |
Hugh Jackman and Brad Pitt...::sigh:: |
| Celebrity Female Faves:: |
Streisand, Celine, Charlize, Drew, Julia, Sandra, Megan Mullally, JLO...etc... |
| Mate:: |
jhdsahfslhf |
| Mate's Age:: |
l\sihfdksVGFDISDVGF |
| Virginity:: |
::gasp!:: That's not a proper question for a lady! ::humph!:: |
| Number of Past Relationships:: |
2 |
| How Far You've Gone:: |
oOo I went to Spain once! |
| First Date:: |
13 yrs old w/ Juan (no not "that one") at Mn St. @ movies- "Save the Last Dance"...hawhaw ewwww |
| First Kiss:: |
!2 yrs old with Rafi by our lake at night ::aww:: |
| First Steady:: |
ugh...Okay now it's "that one" |
| First Slow Dance:: |
'Awww...w/ sergy in 4th grade to "All My Life" by KC & Jojo! |
| How Long It's Been Since You Had a Relationship:: |
I'm not liking these questions... |
| Whose Ring Do You Wear:: |
My future ::tear:: yellow-diamond ring....::waaaaaa:: |
| Secret Admirers:: |
...iono...if it were secret I wouldnt know, would I? |
| Secret Crushes:: |
::sniff:: |
| Oldest Date:: |
18 |
| Youngest Date:: |
13 |
| Most Embarrassing Date:: |
ugh...plz noooo |
| Blind Dates:: |
none |
| Number of Marriages:: |
1 future husband |
| Number of Children:: |
3> 2 boys and 1 girl (Anthony, Mathew, Lily) <maybe...i'm fickle |
| Past Assaults:: |
::gasp!:: no, thank God! |
| Favorite Outlet for Desire:: |
umm... |
| .family&friends. |
| Spouse:: |
::pout:: |
| Children:: |
3> 2 boys and a girl...
Victor Manuel, Bradley Nicholas, Allie Lynne |
| Grandchildren:: |
ask them ^^ |
| Mother:: |
Bertha Daisy |
| Father:: |
Otto Jose |
| Grandparents:: |
Sergio & Bertha Morales; Jose & Hortencia Herrera |
| Sisters:: |
Jennifer Lee (22) |
| Brothers:: |
Brian (4) & Ottico (30) |
| Aunts:: |
Tia Aleida, <(daughter) Tia Aleidita |
| Uncles:: |
Tio Alberto, Tio Sergito |
| Steps/Near-steps:: |
Beto (s.daddy), <(daughter) Kira (17) |
| Half-sibs:: |
All of us lol |
| In-laws/Near-in-laws:: |
::tear:: |
| Fiancè/Fiancee:: |
::sob:: |
| Cousins:: |
Nicole (10), Kimmy (5), Kirsten (3), Dennis (19) |
| Favorite Family Member:: |
Tia Aleida |
| Least Favorite Family Member:: |
Dennis ugh |
| Deceased Family:: |
Abueli Benita, Abuela Bertha, Abuelos Sergio & Jose, Tio Sergito |
| Famous Ancestors:: |
Tia Aleida and Dad (Famous singers in Cuba) |
| Best Friend:: |
Jennifer Elizabeth!! |
| Close Girl Friends:: |
Steph, Sasha, Sam, Gaux, Charlina...etc. |
| Close Guy Friends:: |
Raul, Jamie, Bee, Sergy, Zander...etc. |
| Acquaintances:: |
everybody else, i guess...i dunno |
| Oldest Friend:: |
Miyuli (sat next to me in Kindergarden) |
| Youngest Friend:: |
Cousin Nicole |
| First Friend:: |
Stephanie my long lost cousin |
| Newest Friend:: |
Sean |
| Childhood Friends:: |
Monica, Lorraine, Miyuli, Charlina, Sergy, Rafi, Jee... |
| Friends You Dated:: |
Glenn, Raul |
| Disconnected Friends:: |
Lula, Gisey, and the gang...Elem. and Middle ppl |
| Deceased Friends:: |
nope |
| Enemies:: |
Lulu lol, but I forgive her |
| Oldest Enemy:: |
umm...Lulu? |
| Enemies That Became Friends:: |
Marcie hawhaw |
| Friends That Became Enemies:: |
um...hawhaw Jen knows... |
| Role Model:: |
Mommy, Jenny, Tia Aleida, Miss, Steph, Raul (all diff reasons) |
| Most Trusted Person:: |
Mommy, Jenny, Jen |
| Most Loving Person: |
Mommy |
| Prettiest Friend:: |
Jen & Steph> 2 diff kinds of pretty |
| Neighbor Friends:: |
Charlina |
| Neighbor Enemies:: |
Rafi...we're currently not speaking ::rolls eyes:: |
| .favourites. |
| Food:: |
Sushi! |
| Drink:: |
Really cold water, or lemonade |
| Fruit:: |
all! except papaya, and the green one <ick |
| Candy:: |
Starbursts <Jen!! & Chocolate (except dark) |
| Ice Cream Flavor:: |
Coldstone's flavors! |
| Pizza Topping:: |
Pepperoni and extra cheese!! |
| Vocal Song:: |
"Tell Him"...and so many others...jeeze... |
| Instrumental Song:: |
"Tango"..i dunno by whom... |
| Band:: |
Switchfoot |
| Solo Artist:: |
Streisand, Celine, JLO, Usher, me hawhaw etc... |
| Genre:: |
rock/pop |
| System:: |
CD player |
| Movie:: |
"The Notebook"::sob::, Sweet November, Butterfly Effect ect.. |
| Sitcom:: |
Will and Grace, Everybody Loves Raymond, etc... |
| Drama/Soap:: |
Betty La Fea lol |
| Game Show:: |
"Your Face or Mine?"...hahaha |
| Old Show:: |
I love Lucy, Bewitched, I dream of Jeanie, Full House, The Torkelson's!! |
| Kids' Show:: |
umm...The Torkelson's? |
| Fantasy Series:: |
I Dream of Jeanie...and Jamie's The 4400 sounds suprisingly interesting. |
| Music Video:: |
I Love You This Much by some Christian singer |
| Old Song:: |
ooo too many! Maniac, Girls Wanna Have Fun, Beatles songs just to name a few that come to mind. |
| Reality Show:: |
Newleyweds, ashlee, etc... I dont really watch TV that much to have to watch these b/c there nothing else. |
| Commercial:: |
I agree with Jamie! DQ mulatees is funny. |
| Movie Actor:: |
Pacino and the greats |
| Movie Actress:: |
Streisand, Barrymore, Hepburn etc... |
| TV Actor:: |
Ray Romano hawhaw |
| TV Actress:: |
^his mom hawhaw no seriously his TV mom |
| Animal Star:: |
Comet from Full House! |
| Cartoon:: |
Care Bears...they were my fave when i was a babe |
| Anime:: |
ew |
| Cartoon Character:: |
Dumbo!! |
| Anime Character:: |
ugh |
| RPG:: |
wa? |
| Sports Game:: |
basket, volley, soccer... |
| Fighter:: |
Catwoman or Ivy buahahaha |
| Shooter:: |
ahhh where? ::duck:: |
| Racer:: |
They're gonna get killed one day. |
| MMORPG:: |
huh? |
| Game System:: |
Nintendo 64 fshooo |
| Game of All Time:: |
Super Mario 64!! |
| Book:: |
Can You Keep A Secret? by Sophie Kinsella |
| Manga:: |
a sleeve? |
| Magazine:: |
YM, Cosmo, Seventeen |
| Series:: |
::sniff:: no more Potter for me... |
| Book Character:: |
Emma f/ Can You Keep A Secret? |
| Author:: |
Nicholas Sparks, Nora Roberts |
| Poet:: |
my sis! She won a big poetry contest and won scolarship money! |
| Poem:: |
Rhythm Divine by Jennifer Lee |
| Artist:: |
Da Vinci, Britto |
| Art Work:: |
Starry Night, Britto's line |
| Photographer:: |
Bhaer (my photograher) Justin, the cute guy from mime! |
| Photo:: |
um...the Justin's photo lol |
| Place:: |
My cozy room fulla memories |
| Country:: |
Cuba fsho!...and Italy or Spain! |
| City:: |
NYC & Miami Beach |
| Smell:: |
Cinnimon |
| Sound:: |
Music or pure nothing |
| Colour:: |
White |
| Taste:: |
good food |
| Texture:: |
silk |
| Flower:: |
Orchid |
| Tree:: |
The big one in back of my house that was planted when I was born> My life tree. |
| Animal:: |
Monkey and Dolphin |
| Faerie:: |
Puck hawhaw Bee!! |
| Time of Day:: |
The night life!! (as I see it through my bedroom window lol) |
| Month:: |
December |
| Holiday:: |
Christmas is always a nice feeling |
| Shape:: |
Circle |
| Symbol:: |
Stars |
| Fairy Tale:: |
The Little Mermaid |
| Word:: |
Super |
| Girl's Name:: |
Lily |
| Boy's Name:: |
Victor Manuel |
| Quote:: |
"Boys suck." -Jen and Monki |
| Element:: |
umm fire? |
| Thing to Do Alone:: |
Chill |
| Thing to Do With Friends:: |
Chill |
| Electronic Device:: |
cellie...in which is lost and disconnected until I get a new one. |
| Manual Device:: |
ummm ? |
| Musical Instrument:: |
piano, electric guitar |
| Tea:: |
G.mas Lemon tea, brisk |
| Coffee:: |
Starbucks frozen frapps!! |
| Kind of House:: |
::sniff:: |
| School Grade:: |
11th |
| School Subject:: |
Drama, Music |
| Art Medium:: |
I didn't even know art had a medium |
| Kind of Butterfly:: |
pretty ones!!!!! |
| Curse Word:: |
ack no! stop! plz! |
| Lie/Excuse:: |
You never said that!...you did? oh, well i didn't hear you. |
| Season:: |
Fall, Winter |
| Ancient Culture:: |
Egyptain |
| Climate:: |
Cool |
| Weather:: |
Partly sunny |
| Emotion:: |
Love |
| Aspect of Your Personality:: |
down-to-earth |
Thursday, July 08, 2004
What we're gonna look like when we're old and wrinkly!
Wednesday, July 07, 2004
For some reason, my blog isn't working. It becomes non-responsive whenever i try to go on it.
Not only is that not working...but neither is Raul and I...once again...over and over...the same old stupid story!
Parentals are going on a crazy rampage now that they know about us. I'm scared for him... he's a legal adult and i'm under age. He wont quit though. I'm really scared. My father is involved now.
This is ridiculous.
Everything is unresponsive. God, please respond! please help. I hate to know he's hurting. I don't really care about anything else but that right now. I don't want him gettng into my messes and screw ups...I wish it were easier and people more open-minded.
la la la
I'm so happy!
ok t'was the question of last night:
"Is u is o' is u aint ma bebe?"
can't 'elp it...I is....
So...who knows now...putting my fists up...and i'm gonna punch anybody's lights out who doesn't agree. ::grrr:: teehee
AHK!! Jenny knows! 'tis okie doke tho...a bit surprised, shocked, etc...but all's good.
Tuesday, July 06, 2004
Today has been quite a day.
I've realized i've been nothing but a dork these past few...months. lol
I'm in the midst of yet again a dilemma...but this one is a actually one worth fighting for.
hmmm... ::pensive::
I have the best friends i could ever ask for...
Phew!! They put up with me! thats more than enough! lol
I need to start over...but how? I don't want to sacrifice certain things...but then again...
I already have, haven't I?
Its been a difficult day. A day full of laughs, fights, tears, rescues...love.
Love... ::pensive::
He's right...again...but of course i can't let him know that. ::winkwink:: But then again he's always right.
Oh, how it frustrates me so.
Well...after so much...i think i'm finally at rest. I've put the past behind me...and now i'm ready to permanently move on. I just can't watch The Notebook ever again! lol
But I belong to someone else who needs me and wants me more...and ya know what? I feel the same way...I think I'd miss him too much. ::sigh:: But of course... There's always that one thing that always in the way...
Sometimes I wanna run, you know? Just run from it all. I wish I could make my own decisions...but I'm smart enough to know that it's impossible right now...I just have to wait it out.
I do love him. Yes, there are times when...i'm not very fair...the past (better not to say names, but you know what I mean) is difficult to digest...to take it all in. It's still difficult. But I think I need to let go...and I have. I need to understand that God has bigger and better plans for me...whatever happens right now...is God's decision...whether I and he likes it or not. But that page is most definitely turned. I do love Raul...sometimes I just take it all for granted.
Love is patient,
love is kind...
It...always trusts,
always hopes,
always perseveres.
Love never fails.
*1 Cor. 13:4, 7-8*
Monday, July 05, 2004
I'm at Jen's right now. I love it here.
We went to the movies and saw The Notebook.
Honestly, I wasn't much in the mood for a sappy movie. I had a bad feeling about it, but Jen insisted, and I gave in. So we watched it.
After the first 5 minutes of the movie, i was already crying my little eyes out, and there was nothing sad happening in the movie. They were not even in love yet and i was already bawling.
Throughout the whole movie, Jen cried about one tear, and i sobbed even during the funny parts.
But it wasn't the movie I was crying about. Somehow, it all seemed very familiar.
The people around us in the theatre noticed I was practically the only one crying in the first scene and they giggled about it, while I was feeling even worse.
After the movie, we went to Taco Bell. I wasn't very hungry. But the cute guy at the register gave Jen and I free sodas...descarado!
But that didn't make me feel any better, and i cried in Taco Bell....and on the ride back home...but Edward, Jen's little brother and I bothered each other and i made fun of him a little bit and he made me laugh...so I felt a bit better.
After all that, I ended up with a headache...I showered at Jen's and here I am typing away...
Darn these sappy tunes she plays.
Thursday, July 01, 2004
Hey! How do you guys like my new additions to the site?
All inspired work from Ms. SKM herself! ::wink.wink::
I figured out the HTML...not that difficult...just very time-consuming, right Steph?
(She's nodding her head...or she will...like right now...she had to have done it already...are u nodding yet? no? NOD!! there you go!
hehe ok ok fine..i'm a dork... yea, yea...::rolls eyes and flushes:: not the toilet, my cheeks, you poops! *haw*)
well, gimme a comment on my new comment board ::wink::
...been working literally all night on these...its now 5:03am... i would be waking up in like maybe 3 hours...
I also watched The Wedding Singer and The Butterfly Effect!! they were both awesome! i had already seen The Wedding Singer. It's like one of my faves...ahem! ::hint.ricki."grow.old.w/.u".hint:: *coughcough*
hmmm rough day today...for those who were there:
thx for your patience. i love you.
blablabla, nothing more to say...thanks to everyone for visiting my site...blablabla...BBQ anyone? yay for vero, day, ricki, jen, and stephy for w/b on the BBQ...anyone elsssssse? c'mon...dont be shy...
k luv ya byebye
Posted at 05:09 am by Stellar119
Tuesday, June 29, 2004
Today Ricki and I make 3 months officially together. It's been an okay day though...nothing special. ::wink.wink::
But okay, accidently, i sent out an email to the idiot and he emailed me back. He was all mad and obnoxious about it too. well i wrote back and this time i kept my dignity and apologized for the mistake and wished him well...of course with a little sarcasm...but i'm going to be the better person and keep my composure. so hah! i won! i got the last word! lol teehee jk
well yea...blablabla boredness...chips and salsa yummmmmmmm! gonna go watch a moooooovie (<austin powers! remember?...no? okay...never mind...aw i miss my Dr.Evil, Adam!)...anywho yea...byebye
Monday, June 28, 2004
Hey! I wanna plan a get together for friends...
Maybe a BBQ or w.e.
Tell me whatcha think.
***someone tell Lula about it because i didnt email her.
You can leave a message on the chatterbox on the left, or click on the link where it says "que bola?" or "bla...yadda...mmhm..."
Thanks.
Sunday, June 27, 2004
I hate **** day! (i added more.:.read again)
It's been an okay day so far...except for the special date it was supposed to be. I wonder if he even remembers it or is thinking about me. I remember all the plans we had made for today...ahem...i shouldn't be talking about this. It isn't right...so i'll stop.
Right, so anywho, today I went to church. The whole family this time. Mom was happy. Steph and Sasha were there. We had a nice time. I got camp pictures, a poem from Sasha, followed by Jeff, excited about Steph's "shoulder" (hawhaw), deafened by our new band's drummer (We want Harrison!!), and a great lesson.
It was the story about Noah and his ark and how no one believed it was going to rain when Noah warned them. Once the rain was up to the ppls knees they saw Noah was right and they came and banged on the already closed 150ft boat Noah built with his own bare hands guided by God...but God wouldn't open b/c they had their chance and didn't take it and ignored God.
This was pretty much to tell us that if we hear God calling us to do or not do something and we ignore God, one day it's going to be too late and he wont let us into the gates of heaven. Not because he's bad, but because we had our chance and we walked away from God.
Just as when...i dunno...lets say a girl wants to reconcile with her boyfriend and her boyfriend denies her, when he realizes he should have reconciled, it's too late. (*hint.hint*) I'm so stupid hawhaw. ugh...so after church, the fam and I went to The Ale House!!! Yuuuummmmmm! ZINGERS!! <my fave! But then two stupid songs came, and I got a few unnecessary comments from Beto and once again i got all teary eyed b/c of today. HOW ANNOYING!!!! w.e. I still wonder though...ahhhh nooooo stop it!! no i'm not gonna think about it anymore.
Yay! Jen comes back today!! Thank God! My therapist! lol
Steph: Don't worry snookums! I'll pray about ur class.
anywho...i'll come back to add more on today's events...maybe it'll be eventful...maybe not. I hope...nah never mind.
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Okay its like 1am now...after i finished writing above, it was still like 2pm or something...then i spoke to raul and i dont remember how my blog came up, but he made me read it to him...and me with my big mouth even told him what day it was today...well b/c i read this to him. okay so then i speak to Steph and to Jen who came back from NC!!! yay! then i had to go the my tia's house.
Before that though, we went to go buy her a belated birthday present at Navarro's perfume galary (haw) and then passed by Starbuck's (yummm) and then went to their house. Backtrack to Starbuck's> i asked my mom if i could stay over Jen's house for today b/c #1: i havent seen her and i miss her and #2: i dont wanna be alone on a day like today.
She said no...mainly b/c i hadnt picked up like i was supposed to. ugh...and then when i tried to explain to her my two reasons, she rolled her eyes at the first and scoffed at the second. "You need to get over it," she said. She's right, but she's not helping by doing that either. No sensitivity...ugh.
Anywho, at my Tia's house, they started watching this cuban/argentinian comedy show...i hate those though b/c theyre full of practically naked women! it's so unnecessary, too! They have nothing to do with the comedic skit and they look trashy and cheap. and when i refused to watch it they lgot mad at me. and when i told them why, (b/c its a disgrace to women and totally against God's word), they called me spunky and cute, and kept watching.
ugh...it's been a half-horrid day...the only good part was church and the 2 hrs i spent at home talking to Raul, Steph and Jen. Otherwise, it was horrible. Tia did give me a really cute dress, and some jewelry that used to belong to my Abuela, so that was cool.
So on the way home, i talk to my parents about making a demo for myself and they said not until i prove i'm actually going to do it this time. They love to lecture. I'm really into it now, though. Ive been thinking about it so much. I'm ready. They dont belive me though. So i'll prove it.
i get home, and i get online and Jen is talking to angel, so instead i talk to Mark and Chris Lam...how wonderful, eh? No offense i love them, but eh...not enough to brighten up my day. Mark did give me advice on getting my restricted, so i'm going to make an appt soon and go get my drug and alcohol course this weekend. ::sigh::
Today was as sucky as i thought it would be...can't wait till tuesday!
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