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Willkommen, Bienvenue, Welcome! I hope you all enjoy reading this blog as much as I enjoy writing it. A little about myself? Not much to say. I'm just a girl trying to figure out life and its many complications. I call myself a "scribbler of dreams," hence this blog. I'm a dreamer, an extrovert, a slacker, a "mush-gush," a performer, a daughter, a sister, a friend, and "that girl." I study theatre and plan to make a successful career out it...preferably musical...maybe BrOaDwAy? Who knows, right? My climax awaits...but for now, I'm only in the "rising action" of the story of my life. Every day is another page turned; every year, another chapter. My objective in life is to enjoy it (in, of course, a healthy and responsible way). I may not be the best person sometimes, but I try my best to be a good one. I pray each and every page of your book be wonderful. Thank you and may God bless you always,
Monica
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"Life is the ultimate experience of agony and happiness."
-Paul Gulisano
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Wednesday, November 10, 2004
This is awesome!! I'm at my school library right now and i'm supposed to be doing research but...i'm not...haw...
So...well its been a ...tough...week...and i'm in a class with a connection to the subject that had most to do with my ...tough...week...and it kinda sucks because i dont what the subject
Buuuut... yea...My research project is on John Lennon...the play's going crappy...if they replace julio and abe, the plays gonna be even more horrible than it already is...its really disappointing to be the class that brings down our program for the first time...i hope we wont be the end of our program's glory years...but the truth is that so far from wehat ive seen, our group isnt strong in talent and i guess that's Miss' fault b/c she chose the ppl in this program...I know my weaknesses but she hasnt given me the opportunity to strengthen them...then again its also my fault because i have made much of an effort lately.
I need to find a monologue!! I need to present it on Monday for FTC (Florida Theatre Conference), a conference up in Lakeland, Florida in which i'm participating in. We're leaving next Wednesday and coming back next Sunday...so yea. I'll be spending about 5 days with my classmates rooming in a hotel and staying up until the wee hours of the night doing only God knows what! ...im really excited...and so are most of the guys. those pervs. I'm totally keeping my bible real close. lol
Well...Paul surprised me yesterday in Main Street (I stay there with Jen on tuesdays waiting for my dance class to start) ...well i kinda thought he was coming, but he did give me quite a fright...and kinda punched me in the nose...*ouch* but yea we hung out and ate...a lot...and then i felt kinda queasy, and right before my dance class too which wasnt good.
Cristine, the little cute chubster in my stretch class stretched with me and i think i wanna be her permanent partner. I felt bad b/c at first i didnt wanna be her partner, but she turned out to be pretty cool and, along with me, the best stretcher in class. We were the only 2 girls in class with a perfect split...and thats uncommon for a chubby girl. I was proud of her.
Ew...theres this girl in my class who--- oops...thats gossip...ugh being a good christian is hard...
anywho...yea i dont have much to write...
o yes i do!!
well the other day me and jen had a long talk about our friendship...and its been kinda rocky lately. turns out she's moving, and for the first time it didnt bother me as much as i thought it would. dont get me wrong. I love her. She's a sister to me...but i dunno. But i'm leaving too. Or i hope i am. I really want to make it to Penn State University. My parents aren't too find of the idea, but i want to try being on my own for a while, ya know? We'll see....if not i'm staying here, most probably, and going to New World College. But my top choice is Penn State b/c it ranked 5th in the country for musical theatre-----omg i almost had a heart attack!!!!!!my teacher just passed by and someone called him before he noticed my comp...that and i maximized my other screen with my research info on it...hawhaw slickness...
Well today i'm going over my friend Sophie crib and we're gonna work on a project along with Brandy, Chelsea, and Brian...that should be fun, i guess. but we're working so we'll see.
Anywho...back to the whole jen thing (i always trail off), well as our conversation got deeper, so did comments about me and flaws, or w.e. u may call them. you know, it dawned on me yesterday as i was watching "Sex and the City"... why do i tell anyone anything about my personal life or what decisions i make or dont make. Yea i know what i should do, but no one will really truly understand why i make certain decisions i make, so why even bother explaining. Ive given up on that. yes...i do make really stupid mistakes, but so does the next person, and they (whoever "they may be--see "The Day They Shot John Lennon" to find out who "they" are) are imperfect and they make mistakes and they will continue to make them and learn from them. So whether my decisions are right or wrong, i will deal with them on my own, because the more ppl know about them, the worse i look as a person, and i know for a fact that i'm a good person, and no one's going to make me believe any different. So as of right now, i'm on my own dealing with my own personal situations on my own...because i'm the only one who can ever truly understand. So, I'll smile and continue to smile even though i dont feel i want to at the moment, only to prevent from needing to explain anything to anyone...im not obliged to, therefore i wont...its better that way. It's a lot less complicated, and more complications are the last thing i need.
Posted at 12:05 pm by Stellar119
 | | | nikki
December 13, 2004 08:39 PM PST
killer long entry.... im sorry things have been so shaky for ya. id really like to talk to u, hehe but ur so busy or u jus hate me =p ttyl
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| | | Name
December 13, 2004 05:45 PM PST
S'been awhile since I've been here, but today made me think about all the drama students with bloggy thingies and diaries and I remembered you.
You might wanna use code names from now on. | |
| | | hamster love ... jen..
December 2, 2004 05:46 PM PST
All I have to say is that your stinky poo and that it took me 3 weeks to see your blog..... lalalalala ... hey steph, paul, RAUL: not criticising you guys geez...lol.. and good luck in your show moni .. love ya byes ... now unto everybody elses blog which I havn't read .... you know why I wrote hamster .. | |
| | | Jess
November 29, 2004 03:26 PM PST
Hey, OMG I absolutely HaTe that we never get to see each other or make plans... We really have to. Miss ya so much cuz we never freakin see eahc other! lol... g2g... xo0xo- Jess | |
| | | Raul
November 13, 2004 03:03 PM PST
I just wanted to send this link to you all cuz its really funny (warning there is foul language in it)
http://media.ebaumsworld.com/whereismychange.wmv | |
| | | Raul
November 13, 2004 12:55 PM PST
Hey ma I came online for the chance that you might be on seeing that a phone call is out /of the question. Anyway I finally published an entry in that blog that I started but never wrote anything in. So you can catch it if you want. Oh i noticed that everytime im here no one ever says hi to me or anything but instead i get a phone call from ma either pissed off or hurt. Look ppl just because we are going through our ups and downs that doesnt mean that you all cant say hi or something. So I'll take the first step. Wzup everyone!!! Oh and those of you that dont know me my name is Raul and if you want to ask me anything about anything im here for you (that includes details behind what monica writes about me). I think everyone should hear both sides of the story thats all. Well anyways I hope you all have a good day. bye.
e-mail add. jokerbum18@yahoo.com | |
| | | kcam
November 11, 2004 09:17 PM PST
and u listen. | |
| | | kcam
November 11, 2004 09:17 PM PST
watch out at the competition...u kno what goes on there. i kno u dont want to shout ur problems but let people in on them. ur close friends. ie: me, sam, jen. i really want to talk to u about some stuff..ive actually talked to my mom in a more less civil conversation. (ok not really...) but still she helped me c what my problem was in regards to u. ill explain but only if u let me talk to u. | |
| | | Paul
November 10, 2004 07:57 PM PST
Hey i so did not punch you! i maybe ran into your nose but i didnt punch, and you so did not know i was coming.. your just saying that becuz you dont wanna admit that i completely surprised you.... but its ok if your in denial..:) ... and im sorry to hear that you were having problems with Jen.. and i hope you do get into Penn State... they need someone like you there... We'll still keep in contact though...not having that happen again..:)... and remember Salsa tomorrow...Plz , go ... i just want you to go once, but ill understand if you cant... kinda used to it..lol... and im ranting on ... last thing anyone wants is me ranting ..so ill call you later..kk buh byez... | |
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